you say you wish you were me? ha 

No, no you don’t. Because you don’t know the first thing about what goes through my head every night. You don’t know the shit I’ve been through. When I wake up in the morning I automatically want to just go back to sleep, because I feel like when I’m asleep I can’t mess anything up, I can’t disappoint anyone or myself. And at night I say I’m not tired, but in reality I’m physically and mentally exhausted, I just stay up because I can’t sleep with all the thinking I do. My mind likes to tell me it’s my fault my mom doesn’t care to be around, like it’s my fault I can’t get good grades no matter how hard I try. I feel like every friendship I have fails because I didn’t care enough. Being 16 years old and having the mindset that I have isn’t healthy. No one wants to be me, or anything like me. I’m just a disappointment